I've been focusing more on just eating at home lately, and less on eating raw. I've found that part of my attraction to raw food is CONTROL. Because I have control over something external (like eating), it makes me feel more control internally. I haven't decided if it actually affects my internal control or it only makes me FEEL more in control. I'd like to figure out internal balance without subjecting myself to external perfection, which seems to be my tendency. I either eat 100% raw, or 100% not. I want to eat healthy because it makes me feel good, not because it creates a false sense of control.

I just thought I'd share these feelings, in case any of you are going through something similar. Eating a particular diet, especially one as unique as the raw or living foods diets, requires a lot of introspection and often, for me anyway, struggle. I know I will improve... because I know from experience that raw foods make me feel better than any other foods I eat!